I'll just post my newer things. If you want to read more I can post older stuff I guess.
Forgotten
A thousand words but no reply
“I can’t believe she loves that guy”
The memories all blown away
He lied to her – he said he’d stay!
A love so deep; you can’t compare
That girl would smile when he was there
He looks right through – a solid ghost
But he’s the one she loves the most
Her smiles fade – her heart is dying
The boy won’t look to see her crying
But all the love that she is caught in
That man; her love – he has forgotten.
Dont Exist
It's hurting me - I've fallen down
I cant get up! I'm on the ground!
My heart; it stopped! I'm petrified-
You said you'd stay - Instead you lied
Though all alone; I'm crying now
But I cant stop - I dont know how!
I doubt you care; it's just no use
I'm still in love - what's your excuse?
The way you act, it's just not fair!
Just look at me; how much I care!
I'm lost in love - the thickest mist
Pay me no mind. I dont exist.
I like them. I think they could be improved if you used some figurative language. I only found one example of it used in the first poem ("a solid ghost") but I didn't find any in the second poem. Figurative language gives writing more depth & character.
I'd like to see some of your older stuff, if you don't mind.
@ MissxMarie: yeah, those two are about the same person ><; not an ex- but close enough..
@ RedRevolver: Eh. It bothers me to write poems that dont ryhme. My friends say I'm going to be the next Dr. Seuss.
@ Amber: Thanks, Lol. I dont really think TOO much about that stuff when I write because I concentrate on words somewhat making sense and rhyming.. but thanks for the advice anyways ^^;
and I'll post my old things in a big quote; this stuff is all from between last year and three years ago.
WARNING: I WENT THROUGH AN UBER EMO/SUICIDE STAGE
Quote:
~The More I~
I Let You Fall
You Let Me Die
How Can I Feel
More Pain Inside
The More I Dream
The More Tears Fall
The More I Think
"Just End It All"
The More I Suffer
The More I See
You Always Were
The One For Me
The More We Talked
The More I'd Care
The More I'll Cry
'Cuz Your Not There
The More I Listened
The More I Knew
That I Would Be
The One For You
The More I Think
About You Now
My Heart Will Sink
And I Will Drown.
~I Said I Love You~
I Said "I Love You"
But You Just Stared
I Said "I Love You"
But Like You Cared
I Do Love You...
I Said "I Need You"
As You Walk Away
I Said "I Need You"
So You Would Stay
I Really Need You...
I Said "I Want You"
And Then You Stopped
I Said "I Want You"
And My Heart Dropped
I Do Want You...
I Said "I Love You"
And Then I Cried
I Said "I Love You"
And Then I Died...
~Watch Me Die~
Take A Knife And Stab Me
Pierce Me Through The Heart
Rip My Living Soul Out
Or Just Dont Even Start
Accidently Kill Me
If You Want Me Gone
Just Dont Leave My Body
Laying On The Lawn
My Life Is Not That Good
So I Don't Really Mind
Just Dont Leave Me Somewhere
For Someone Else To Find
Stab Me With Some Needles
Strangle Me With Thread
Never Stop The Pain
Until You Know I'm Dead
Push Me In A Shark Tank
Then Act Like You Dont See
Watch My Death Approach
Then Stay Away From Me.
~Someone Cared~
I can not sleep
A tear wont fall
I wont loose my life
Against this all
I can not dream
For He Is There
He Follows Me
Everywhere
I cant forget
What we once had
The love we shared
I was so glad
Someone I knew
That I could trust
Who wouldn't leave me
In the dust
When I was falling
He was there
Someone To Prove
That Someone Cared.
~A Grin~
Some people say i'm crazy
But it doesn't bother me
Some people say I'm lazy
That I watch too much tv
Some people say I'm dumb
Just one stick for a drum
Some people say i'm strange
But I'm just one out of range
Some people think I'm glad
When I'm actually really sad
Some people think they know me
They think they see through my skin
They think I'm always happy
Just because they see a grin...
~The Birdie Next Door~ <---one of my first poems ever.
The Birdie Next Door
Can Speak Japanese
The Birdie Next Door
Can Balance On It's Knees
The Bidie Next Door
Doesn't Like Trees
The Birdie Next Door
Eats Paper Bees
The Birdie Next Door
You Can't Understand
For The Birdie Next Door
Is A Paper Hand
~Not A Regret~
One day I'll do it
I'll end my life
One simple cut
Will end this Strife
I'll take my knife
Across my arm
Can one more cut
Do so much harm
I'll first go slowly
Then I'll go fast
I cut it up
Then it's the past
I'll lay down
Onto my bed
I'll sit real quiet
Until I'm dead
I'd say I'm sorry
But I wont lie
I have but one
More tear to cry
When I am gone
Do not forget
What I did
I won't regret.
~Goodbye It Spelled~
I'll pull you close
I'll hug you tight
You'll comfort me
Throughout the night
I see your face
You watch with care
It's good to know
That someone's there
You'd ask whats wrong
I'd say I'm fine
The same answer
Every time
It doesn't matter
I'll be ok
I doubt you'd care
Anyway
If I am gone
When your awake
What happend To Me
Was no mistake
You see me dead
Against you there
You thought you proved
That you could care
Now I am gone
With no farewell
Across my wrist
Goodbye it spelled
~It Ends~
I stopped myself
And I just cried
Because of him
I almost died
Somehow I knew
It would not last
He's just a memory
From my past
If just a thought
Why is there pain
This feeling makes me
Go insane
I hate the love
I hate it all
Rip out my heart
And let it fall
Take out the feelings
Deep Within
I'll use a knife
I'll cut my skin
I'll watch my blood
Drip out once more
For this much hate
There is no cure
I bid farewell
To all my friends
For on this night
My life, it ends.
~Just A Dream~
The Pain Increases
I Grab The Knife
One Simple Cut
Or End My Life
I Make One Cut
It Starts To Bleed
I Make One More
That's All I Need
I'll Make Another
And Then I'll Quit
Just So You
Won't Have A Fit
I Made One More
I Went Too Deep
Now It's Time For Me
To Go To Sleep
Bloods Rushing Out
My Eyes Closed Fast
I Killed Myself
Now That's The Past
I Feel Alone
You Say You Care
You Say You'll Die
If I'm Not There
Well Now I'm Gone
You're Still Around
While I Am Buried
Down Underground
I Shouldn't Have Done It
I Swore I'd Stop
Before I Fell
My Final Drop
My Eyes Bolt Open
And Then I Scream
Good Thing This Was All
Just A Dream.
~My Cure~
One last prayer before my bed, Take my soul to keep
Let me gently rest my head, As I feel eternal sleep
Tuck me in ever so tight, Let me face my doom
For this shall be my final night, Laying here in my room
Do not fear for I wont cry, My final wish is clear
On the night that I die, Please don't shed a tear
I wish for nothing more, Then for you to be well
I'll give you one last kiss, And I bid you farewell
I promise that I love you, I swear it is no lie
And since I know my feeling's true, I cannot say goodbye
I hope this isn't shocking, Unleashing your fear
My heart's forever locking, And so now I'll disapeer
If you prove you love me, Maybe I won't go
Your heart may be my key, You make my feelings grow
Lock me in your arms, Hold me tight once more
If you show your love for me, That might just be my cure.
~Afraid of Affection~
Afraid of monsters under my bed
Afriad of clowns, their noses so red
Afraid of spiders, their legs oh so long
Afraid of my mommy 'cause she did me wrong
My mommy once told me that she loved me so
But those feelings are gone, as I grow and grow
That love has gone since before I was nine
The bruises have shown, as some type of sign
For all of my hate I blame her for it all
Because of my mommy my heart took a fall
She's not the one that I love oh so much
She'll never be there with a gentle touch
My mommy will hurt me much more then before
The hurt that she gave me, there is but no cure
I fear 'cause my mommy, it hurts all the time
Afriad of affection before I was nine.
~love you, goodnight~
My mommy came home sad from work one day,
When I tried to help her she pushed me away
My mommy got mad and she grabbed my wrist,
Punched me real hard with her real strong fist
My mommy she slapped me as hard as she could,
But I guess somehow I knew that she would
My mommy punched me, right in the nose,
That day I bled, all over my clothes
My mommy she killed me, she ruined me inside
I asked her to stop, as tears fell and I cried
My mommy she hurt me for the last time today
She hurt me so bad that my soul flew away
My mommy she killed me, she made me go dead
With a really sharp knife, hanging over my bed
Please don't hurt my mommy, she did what was right
Before she killed me she said, I love you, goodnight.
~Fair Snow White~
With skin as white, As untouched snow
You're still alive but no one knows
You lost your soul, to the ground you fell
Only true loves kiss could break this spell
Your handsome prince, No where in sight
He wont be there to make things right
Snow White you're nothing, Life wont renew
Because he wont be there for you
The man you knew, Your morning dove
Was never one who you could love
Dear Snow White, Please don't worry
Don't awaken, There is no hurry
Snow White you're done, Your life is lost
So quick to trust, You paid the cost
Your handsome prince, He doesn't care
So don't expect to see him there
He never loved you, I won't lie
Your prince left you, With no goodbye
Boquet of flowers, Over your chest
We lay you down for final rest
Now you lay, Alone in that bed
Your spirits gone, Your soul is dead
Rest now my love, My dear Snow White
Shut your eyes, And say goodnight.
~Mommy Dearest~
Oh, Mommy Dearest How Do You Plea?
Innocent As You Say, Or Are You Guilty?
All Those Heartwarming Visits, From DCFS
The Pain You Brought, They Can't Even Guess
Oh, Mommy Dearest You Hurt Me So Much
You Made Me Afriad Of The Gentlest Touch
The Slightest Affection, Afraid Of It All
When I Was Strong, You Made Me Fall
Oh, Mommy Dearest Is This How You Play?
Pushed Me To The Ground So I Cant Run Away?
I Try To Hide, I Really Cant Run
So This Is Your Idea Of Some Fun?
Oh, Mommy Dearest Why Are You So Fake?
Is My Little Heart That Much Fun To Break?
Mommy, Mommy, You're Making Me Cry
Falling, Falling, And Soon I Will Die.
~Hold My Heart~
I want to sing you a song
From the bottom of my heart
I'm always thinking of you
And miss you when we're apart
You always seem to make me happy
Even though you may not try
I love you more each day
I swear this is no lie
I can't see you in person
Just talking on the phone
You make me feel better
And not so much alone
I've liked alot of people
Yet I've never felt this way
You're in my dreams at night
And on my mind each day
You don't know how much it means
To really know you care
To know when I am crying
That you'll always be there
Do you know how much I love you?
It's more then my words can explain
You either mean to world to me
Or I must just be insane
It's funny how my sadness,
The pain that was so deep
Could go away so quickly
Like all this time I've been asleep
I'm not afraid to say it
So now my secret's out
I love you more then life itself
And now I have no doubt
Each day slowly passes
My feelings don't go away
I'm giving you my heart
And that's where it will stay.
~a girl like you~
Is it weird to love a girl?
When you're a girl yourself?
My feelings are out of the closet
But now they're on the shelf
When I turn seventy
You'll be eighty-two
But now that's beside the fact
'Cause I'm still in love with you
Is it weird for me to care?
To care how much I do?
Is it weird to love a girl?
To love a girl like you...
Is it weird to dream of you?
Think of you so much?
Is it weird to yearn for you?
Yearn for your gentle touch?
Is it weird to love you?
Love you like I do?
Is it weird to love a girl?
To love a girl like you...
~He Left You Plain~
Look at what you've been through
So much love, Yet so much pain
He left your heart alone and broken
And it's driving me insane
How can you say no one loves you
We both know that's a lie, I do
I'll continue to always love you
Even if you wont love me too
Feelings don't change so quickly
So trust me, I would know aswell
I've only really loved two people
I understand how hard you fell
I know how much it hurts you
The love you so much believed
When you trusted him the most
It was you who he deceived
Trust me I know this feeling
I know the sting of all the pain
All this hurt that he has brought you
With still your heart he left you plain
~Love is Suicide~
Hold this gun up to my head
Watch me suffer until I'm dead
My eyes turn pale - they slowly shut
Much more pain then just one simple cut
Slowly within my last few breaths
I make out three words before my death
It came out fuzzy you didn't hear
But I'm sure I've made my feelings clear
I'd tell you each and everyday
How deeply that I've felt this way
It doesn't matter, you'd never care
You're laughing at me from over there
I'm just a joke - so let me die
Don't try to stop me don't you dare cry
You're the one who said love's fake
So I guess in the end this is my mistake
Maybe it's time I just let it all go
Depsite the fact that I still love you so
I'm so pathetic - you can clearly see
But I thought that you were friends with me
We dont talk anymore - all I do is cry
Maybe you would be happier if I were to die
I can still feel you, you have my heart
Holding it tightly - you tear it apart
My heart is crying it hurts me inside
It hurts so much that it's you who lied
Now it's happened - my heart broken twice
But falling in love, I paid that price
Should I end it now - my life on earth
I cant help but wonder what I am worth
I try to understand more as my feelings grow
Then again you wont believe enough to know
Now comes the worst 'cause now I died
Across my wrist "Love. is. Suicide."
~Life's Test~
I'm ready now, Take me away
It's time to go, I die today
Not one more tear, Not one drop
I wont let my feelings make me stop
Like any cut I'll start to bleed
My heart ripped out - it's all I need
Soon my life comes to an end
I can't continue, I cant pretend
You dont care, so please dont lie
I wont believe you, why even try
Now as I breathe my final breath
Just one last thing before my death
I want you to live on for me
Continue life as it would be
Go on now, you're not alone
I was the one hurting on my own
Go on live, you're life's the best
Remember all the pain is just a test
A test I failed, a test I quit
All I did was make one little slit...
~Stopped The Heart's Pain~
I'm so confused but I don't know why
I sit in my room alone as I cry
All is silent because no one's there
I wish he understood how much I care
Message after message but still no reply
But I still cant pretend I just cannot lie
My feelings are hurting, They're driving me mad!
I'm going insane -- Lost all that I had
Everyone watches as I fall to the floor
But I keep going back I keep craving for more!
I continue to bother, But my love isn't wanted
Maybe I'm cursed, All my feelings are haunted
But I still get back up -- I go forward once more
Each time slowly hurting me more then before
This time is different -- This love's not the same
I keep pushing and pushing, He must think I'm so lame
It's so hard to talk -- I can't get my words moving
Yet just the sound of his voice, so calm that it's soothing
And he knows all my feelings -- how I love him so much
He knows all about it, How much I yearn for his touch
I just cant escape this I must be going insane
Because this one guy alone, Makes my heart stop the pain.
~Notice Me~
I dont know how to say this or what there is I can do
To let you knows these feelings; that I have felt for you
I try to get your attention -- I tell you everyday
But you never hear me talking, or what I've got to say
You seem to disappear alot when I want you the most
I might aswell just vanish it seems like I'm a ghost
People tell me to forget it -- to go find someone new
They dont know the way I am, or how much I love you
It's not like this just started; you're not another fling
Because I cant forget you, I love you; that's the thing
So maybe I'm just stupid -- but it's what I'm about
I'm writing you this poem now to get my feelings out
What if this is pointless -- a waste of time at home
No place for me inside that heart; no place for me to roam
You know I'll always worry, you know I'll always care
With all the stuff that's going on, I'm sorry I'm not there
I'm not asking for your love -- that's not it you see..
I only want you to know my feelings, to show you notice me.
Dreamer
The sky has become dark I'm all alone
Day has become night I'm on my own
The lights all are out, nothing is heard
As I sit here dreaming; oh how absurd
I dream of love; that I dont have here
Dream of him holding me, being so near
"Hold onto me tight and never let go
I want to be with you; I love you, you know?"
My dream shows his smile, loving as can be
If only that smile was really for me
Dreams are just wishes; they never come true
But a dreamer keeps dreaming, she's dreaming of you
"I want you to hold me, treat me with care
Show me my dreaming is reaching you there"
The night reaches an end, the day is anew
Don't want to wake up; I'll stay there with you
Stuck in my dreams; I'm not giving up now
Someday I will reach him; I'm Just not sure how
"You cant be his lover, you're only his friend!"
But I guess that's good enough; for me in the end
The one who has loved you, who always has cared
Was never the person with love that you shared
I'm not giving up; My love still goes strong
As this dreamer keeps dreaming her love will go on.
~Enough For Me~
So now it ends; I'm giving up
Although my feelings havent stopped
I'm letting go, I'm giving in
I'm good enough as just a friend
It's good enough to see you smile
To know you're happy it's all worth while
Because I love you the way I do
I'm letting loose, you want me to
Forever feelings, Forever love
The one I'm always thinking of
Live life on -- Stay close to her
I'll be okay; I'm always there
Remember me, Please dont forget
The place my feelings couldn't get
To see your smile, See you happy
Will always be == Enough for me.
Forget
I need some help I'm so confused
I really don't know what to do
It's killing me it hurts so bad
My love for him is all I've had
To give a chance -- Try something new
I'm not so sure, I don't know you
"It'll be alright; Some change is good"
Still I'm not sure that I should
Wont it be weird if things dont work?
You might hate me, think I'm a jerk
I just cant do it, Be more then friends
This cant be how the friendship ends
I really like you, that's not a lie
It's just that I'm afraid to try
Please dont ask, I can't say no
This cant be good, I just dont know
This isn't love, It cant be yet
It's better if you just forget.
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