Please tell me why...
Mon Mar 17, 2008 1:12 am
69Please tell me why some stay young and others grow old.
Please tell me why some get to live and others die.
Please tell me why we make such foolish mistakes, when were intellegent enough to avoid them.
Please tell me why some are raped of their childhood.
Please tell me why some live in poverty and others live in wealth.
Please tell me why the heart holds on to people that could care less about it.
Please tell me why I cannot forget.
Please tell me why I cant let go.
Please tell me why I only regret.
Please tell me why I break down.
Please tell me why I cannot heal.
Please tell me why I feel like such a failure.
Please tell me why people lie.
Why are people so cruel?
They make you promise such enormous sacrifices, and it goes up in flames right infront of your face.
Everything you said, it meant so much to me, and nothing to you.
I cant change whats happened, I can only let go.
But alas, you are always in my head. My vision of you stays strong.
It’s been 3 months now I havent seen you.
And yet, it doesnt go away.
Do I choose this misery?
Or is it forced?
I cannot explain the feelings.
I can only feel the pain.
You lied to me, in the worst way.
You left me like I was no one.
I sit here and contemplate life.
Wondering what the hell I’m doing.
I wonder if things are right the way the are...
Or if things have to change.
I thought I had healed.
But then wondered if I should be dead right now.
I don’t treat my son right.
I’m doing everything wrong.
I’m sorry for whoever I have ever hurt.
But you have done your fare share as well.
When I was a child.
And I was raped of my innocence.
I never meant to be such a fuck up.
I’m sorry thats what I became.
And so you all disowned and abandoned me.
I’m going to die alone and be a Jane Doe one day.
I need help.
As I sit here and silently cry.
As to why I sit and cry at night.
When I break down for no reason.
-MM™
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For those who are getting to know me, I know its on your mind, yes, I have 2 children, Hailey and Kyle. Hailey will be 2 next month and Kyle just turned 3 months old this past Saturday.
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So but yea, excited about this website and the new things to come. Newsletter (I'm involved), Holiday Manager (I will be a part of), CF Radio (I REALLLLLY hope to be a part of), and not to mention I am a Mod. :] I'm STILL looking for a job. I'm so broke its not funny. Ugh. ![[Mad]](images/smiles/icon_mad.gif "Mad"){kind=icon}
I bought interview clothes, so hopefully someone will hire me. So, as I'm sitting here listening to Sevendust, organizing files on my computer, I have nothing to do... And so I blog. Blog blog blog. (Getting bored and random o.O) *Dances* Alrighty people. Goodnight, and party with me on the forums. ^^
