I was in an online relationship.. it ended recently but I'm not giving up yet. I know it sounds rude of me and stuff but just listen.
I had this friend I had known for over 3 years. I basically really liked him that entire time. Well our friendship started drifting and he moved and made his own site and banned me from it. My ban reason was "You have no right to be here." he had a girlfriend by then though and I was jealous of her. but ANYWAYS. by now he didnt talk to me, answer emails.. nothing. so I would like. LET him hurt me, by doing nothing.
So then I got in this online relationship. He did not like that this other guy meant so much to me. But was willing to look past it as long as I loved him. And I do, really (I dont care what any of you say about online relationships. I do love him <_<) well we would get in arguments about this friend of mine who didnt even talk to me; because he still meant alot to me and I just wouldnt get over the fact that he hated me, and that someone else could ever ever possibly be a better friend to me then he was. And this made my boyfriend upset; we were arguing one day and I was already in a pretty bad mood.. he asked what he could do or something and I said "be better then him." I cant believe it came from me! That's like the bitchiest thing I've said my entire life. It hurt him alot and he said although he still loves me he was hurt and cant just forgive me.
I understand why and all. But I REALLY care for him and want to be with him. He said he needs some space.. cause like when he talks to me he just likes me more. If I vanish for awhile his feelings for me probably will too. Thats what he wants to happen.. but I dont. I cant stand seeing him on msn and not talking to him; I want to give him the space he wants but he cant tell me a time.. like a week, two weeks, a month (i dont know if I could last @@; ) and I CANT just ignore him and not try to talk to him or anything knowing that it could potentially be forever. That friend of mine.. I sent him an email saying I was over him, done trying to be his friend again when he's a jerk and stuff; he emailed me back with some harsh stuff or whatever. But I'm ok. It didnt hurt to let go of him as much as I thought it would. but it hurts SO much that I dont have my boyfriend anymore.. Apparently last night he changed his username on that forum I'm banned on to something that would be hurtful to me. Another friend of mine told me, but this morning it was back to normal so I dont know. My God. I'm such a bitch -.- I dont know what to do. I really really care about him. he means alot to me and I love him despite what anyone says about it just being text or a voice; it means alot to me <<;
This is just my opinion right or wrong but it seems you have a couple options:
A.) Wait it out and hope you comes back to you, if he doesnt chances are he wasnt truly yours to begin with.
B.) Fight for what you want, you could do that in a couple of ways, copy and paste your post here into an email to him, write him and email and apologizing and explaining your mindset at the time and how you feel about him.
C.) Walk away, give yourself time to heal, absorb all there is to learn from the situation and try to be friends.
Sorry I couldn't be more helpful its a tough situation in the end only you can decide what you want to do and what is right for you.
I hope things work out for you the way you would like.
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I've talked to my therapists too and one said leave him alone
the other said I should try to give him space to a limit; like send him a text message before bed saying "goodnight, I love you" so I'm not prying too much. It's just one text.
I can try that but it's SO hard not to IM him when he's on msn..
